In Memories..Maizatul Adlin, My Little Sister....

My beloved baby sister, the youngest and closest to my parents, Maizatul Adlin Mohamed, 20 years old, passed away peacefully at home at 12.30pm, Thursday 26th May 2011, after a long battle with Malignant Peripheral Nerve Sheath Tumour (MPNST), a rare type of cancer of the nerve.

It is now exactly six days since her passing and only this morning I found the courage to sit down and sort some photos to make this entry. At first I was doubtful whether a tribute here on this space is a good thing but my mother asked me to write so that the memories of her stay forever especially for the little ones in our family. They might be too young to remember so they can come back and read in the future about their beloved Ciksu Lyn who was so attached to her nieces and nephews…..

Bottom left (with me and Aisha) : In April, could still sit up.
Top (with parents), Bottom Right (with the maids) :
In May, could no longer sit had to prop the bed

Lyn was the baby in the family…at only 20 she was like any young ladies, full of life, outgoing, love making friends and just enjoying life. When the tumour was discovered she was at college doing her 2^nd year of TESL as she dreamt of becoming an English teacher. She had always loved children and I knew she would be a great teacher. 

The tumour, stemming from a condition called NF1, when discovered was already at advanced stage and it was the aggressive type. She was in constant horrible nerve pain and had to be given high doses of morphine and towards the end, ketamin. The doctors said it is unresponsive to chemo and gave her one time radiation. After that Lyn was basically bed bound as she lost the function of both her legs. She quickly lost a lot of weight and towards the end it was heart-breaking to see her so frail. The family was with her round the clock and my parents hired two maids to help. Hospital visits become the norm of my life. After almost 5 months in the hospital Lyn told the doctor she wanted to go home. We lost her 9 days after she arrived home.  Now, without those visits and the little chit chat with her I feel empty….somehow I forgot what normal is…..

Lyn my darling…I don’t know how to write poetic words to describe my feelings here…what I know is the loss is just too profound, the hurting is too real and this bouts of crying are just not helping. You were such a spirited young lady…you were strong and courageous and all things that make up for becoming a great person. But Allah loves you more…and we know you are in a better place now, where there is no pain, only peace and love. Your memories will stay with us forever....You need to rest my love…may your soul be amongst the blessed ones…Ameen…

Exactly 2 days after Lyn’s passing, our family is blessed with the arrival of my 3^rd nephew, Faris Ihsan. My second sister, Masni, gave birth via C-Section at Hospital Serdang, and when my parents came to see their new grandchild, we could see how their eyes light up with joy amidst mourning the loss of my sister. 

Could you see how they look worn out but at the same time happiness shines through? Alhamdulillah…Allah is Great and we are forever grateful….

My beloved new nephew, Faris Ihsan Khalid, your presence means a lot to this family. We love you.

Lastly, thank you to all of your wishes and condolences we truly appreciate it. Thank you to Idamurni for being there for me during the funeral, it means a lot to me. This whole experience had somehow given me a new perspective of my purpose in life and how in any tragedy, love will always prevail and family is everything.

Love,

Zura