Wednesday, 1 June 2011

In Memories..Maizatul Adlin, My Little Sister....



My beloved baby sister, the youngest and closest to my parents, Maizatul Adlin Mohamed, 20 years old, passed away peacefully at home at 12.30pm, Thursday 26th May 2011, after a long battle with Malignant Peripheral Nerve Sheath Tumour (MPNST), a rare type of cancer of the nerve.

It is now exactly six days since her passing and only this morning I found the courage to sit down and sort some photos to make this entry. At first I was doubtful whether a tribute here on this space is a good thing but my mother asked me to write so that the memories of her stay forever especially for the little ones in our family. They might be too young to remember so they can come back and read in the future about their beloved Ciksu Lyn who was so attached to her nieces and nephews…..

Bottom left (with me and Aisha) : In April, could still sit up.
Top (with parents), Bottom Right (with the maids) :
In May, could no longer sit had to prop the bed

Lyn was the baby in the family…at only 20 she was like any young ladies, full of life, outgoing, love making friends and just enjoying life. When the tumour was discovered she was at college doing her 2nd year of TESL as she dreamt of becoming an English teacher. She had always loved children and I knew she would be a great teacher. 



The tumour, stemming from a condition called NF1, when discovered was already at advanced stage and it was the aggressive type. She was in constant horrible nerve pain and had to be given high doses of morphine and towards the end, ketamin. The doctors said it is unresponsive to chemo and gave her one time radiation. After that Lyn was basically bed bound as she lost the function of both her legs. She quickly lost a lot of weight and towards the end it was heart-breaking to see her so frail. The family was with her round the clock and my parents hired two maids to help. Hospital visits become the norm of my life. After almost 5 months in the hospital Lyn told the doctor she wanted to go home. We lost her 9 days after she arrived home.  Now, without those visits and the little chit chat with her I feel empty….somehow I forgot what normal is…..


Lyn my darling…I don’t know how to write poetic words to describe my feelings here…what I know is the loss is just too profound, the hurting is too real and this bouts of crying are just not helping. You were such a spirited young lady…you were strong and courageous and all things that make up for becoming a great person. But Allah loves you more…and we know you are in a better place now, where there is no pain, only peace and love. Your memories will stay with us forever....You need to rest my love…may your soul be amongst the blessed ones…Ameen…


Exactly 2 days after Lyn’s passing, our family is blessed with the arrival of my 3rd nephew, Faris Ihsan. My second sister, Masni, gave birth via C-Section at Hospital Serdang, and when my parents came to see their new grandchild, we could see how their eyes light up with joy amidst mourning the loss of my sister. 




Could you see how they look worn out but at the same time happiness shines through? Alhamdulillah…Allah is Great and we are forever grateful….


My beloved new nephew, Faris Ihsan Khalid, your presence means a lot to this family. We love you.

Lastly, thank you to all of your wishes and condolences we truly appreciate it. Thank you to Idamurni for being there for me during the funeral, it means a lot to me. This whole experience had somehow given me a new perspective of my purpose in life and how in any tragedy, love will always prevail and family is everything.

Love,
Zura

98 comments:

  1. I am so very sorry for you and your family. And very warmed to see the new blessing of life.

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  2. alfatihah...salam tahziah dr sy..

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  3. Salam takziah daripada akak sekeluarga... semoga terus tabah menghadapi ujian daripada Allah. Al-Fatihah

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  4. I am so sorry for your loss.  Blessings on the new nephew. 

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  5. Sis Zura.. salam takziah dari saya untuk akak sekeluarga.. semoga arwah bersemadi dengan tenang.. amin.. Alfatihah..

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  6. Assalamu'alaykum Kak Zura, takziah untuk akak sekeluarga..semoga arwah ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yg soleh..aminn..

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  7. salam takziah..semoga arwah ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yang beriman...and congratz for the new born baby 

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  8. takziah kak, sebak nurul baca this entry..so far nurul belum rasa lagi feeling nie, minta dilambatkan hendaknye..semoga semua insan tersayang sehat selalu dipanjangkan usia...aminn..

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  9. Takziah zura... alfatihah..

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  10. Takziah zura..alfatihah..

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  11. Salam Takziah Kak Zura.

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  12. Alfatihah untuk arwah..
    Subhanallah, Allahuakbar..
    Dia ambil satu kebahagian, diberiNya satu kebahagian yang lain..

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  13. Al-Fatihah. I'm very sorry for your loss. I'm sure she is a better place, InsyaAllah. Semoga roh arwah dicucuri rahmat, amin.

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  14. Zura, sending love and peace to you and your family during this time of mourning. And also of celebration and hope at the birth of a new life. May your faith be stronger through these two experiences in life.

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  15. My dear friend, I too have a little sister(20yrs younger then I ) when she was 9yrs old we almost lost her to a rare disease. She went through a lot. When I read your letter this morning, I cried for you, how hurt and empty your heart will be, because of your loss. My your new nephew bless your family with lots of love. Thank you for letting us all be part of your family. Love Merlynn W.    Redding, CA

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  16. Innalillahi wa innailaihi rojiun. Sorry for the loss, may Allah SWT place her in the nicest one in heaven, amiin... and congartulations for the new baby boy!!!

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  17. alfatihah untuk arwah..takziah dari yana sekeluarga... dan tahniah juga atas kelahiran baby

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  18. Zura I'm so so sorry for your loss. Your sister was such a beautiful young woman. She will always be watching over you and your family. My biggest hugs and condolences your way.

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  19. Sorry to hear about your lost dear. Anyway Al-fatihah to your beloved lil sister and congrats on your nephew. 

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  20. Innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun, takziah buat zura sekeluarga. Moga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dikalangan hamba2Nya yg soleh..amin.

    Tahniah atas kelahiran org baru.

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  21. zura, my condolences to you & your family. Al-fatihah..

    Btw, congrats on the new member in your family. So glad to see smiles on your parents' faces.

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  22. Zura, takziah and i pray she'll rest in peace. Congrats for the birth of Faris..he is just tooo cute!

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  23. It must not be easy for you to write this entry .. the pain can never be put in words.  I am sorry for the loss and congratulations on the newborn Faris. Allah memujuk duka dengan kehadirannya.

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  24. Oh, I am heartbroken for your family's huge, terrible loss. I am so, so sorry, and I hope that everyone is comforted by your newborn nephew. Thinking of you, from halfway around the world. 

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  25. Im very sorry about ur sister. God should give strength to ur family. Nice to see a new entery in ur family....

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  26. Alfatihah for your dear baby sister Lin, my sister. Be brave and remember her as she used to be and all those special memories that you will forever cherish. Remember she is now free of pain and she would want you to live life and embrace all that it has to offer. My condolences to your family. 

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  27. Alfatihah for your dear baby sister Lin, my sister. Be brave and remember her as she used to be and all those special memories that you will forever cherish. Remember she is now free of pain and she would want you to live life and embrace all that it has to offer. My condolences to your family. 

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  28. lost for words... i'm sending hugs & prayers your way... always...  *hugs*

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  29. lost for words... i'm sending hugs & prayers your way... always...  *hugs*

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  30. lyn pernah menjadi kwn yg baik ,periang dan adik yang manja buat saya dan kwn2 di rumah sewa..hilangnya x mungkin berganti..semoga roh beliau dicucuri rahmat oleh Allah s.w.t ,salam takziah buat kakak sekeluarga...dan tahniah atas kelahiran baby faris

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  31. salam, zura...my takziah to you and your family...Allah swt sayangkan dia, dia pergi dulu tunggu kita di sana. Yg pasti penghisaban arwah singkat. Doakan semoga perjalanan hidup kita di permudahkan dan dirahmati Allah swt, insyallah.

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  32. salam, zura...my takziah to you and your family...Allah swt sayangkan dia, dia pergi dulu tunggu kita di sana. Yg pasti penghisaban arwah singkat. Doakan semoga perjalanan hidup kita di permudahkan dan dirahmati Allah swt, insyallah.

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  33. I broke into tears when reading.. salam takziah & alfatihah buat Lyn

    tak lupa tahniah atas kehadiran new member of the family

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  34. Charlotte Kaufman11 November 2013 at 22:41

    Sending my deepest condolences to you and your family.

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  35. Charlotte Kaufman11 November 2013 at 22:41

    Sending my deepest condolences to you and your family.

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  36. Since the day I read about your sister, I go through my blog list and wonder about you and her.  May she be at peace now, and let the healing begin you all.

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  37. Since the day I read about your sister, I go through my blog list and wonder about you and her.  May she be at peace now, and let the healing begin you all.

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  38. Takziah atas kehilangan....
    Tahniah atas anugerah.....
    Allah itu Maha Adil...

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  39. Takziah atas kehilangan....
    Tahniah atas anugerah.....
    Allah itu Maha Adil...

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  40. Thank you so much Jemellia I truly appreciate it.

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  41. Thank you so much Jemellia I truly appreciate it.

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  42. Thank you so much Charlotte I truly appreciate it.

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  43. Thank you so much dear I truly appreciate it.

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  44. Thank you so much dear I truly appreciate it.

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  45. Thank you so much Natasha I truly appreciate it.

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  46. Thank you so much Natasha I truly appreciate it.

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  47. Thank you for sharing Merlynn I really appreciate it

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  48. Thank you for sharing Merlynn I really appreciate it

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  49.  May Allah grant her jannah and forgive her for her sins Ameen
    Take care, salams

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  50.  May Allah grant her jannah and forgive her for her sins Ameen
    Take care, salams

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  51. so sad to read about your little sister, how incredibly hard to go through, I imagine. My dad died when I was 9 and my mom when I was 25 so it's just me and my 2 older sisters left.  I know it will be heartbreaking to lose them as well.   May comfort & peace be yours to know your sister is no longer suffering. What a blessing of your new nephew; he is precious.  
    I came over from http://fromanigloo.blogspot.com/2010/03/scrappy-clutch.html because she credited you with inspiration for her scrappy clutch and I love your blog!  congratulations on your 3 A's - that is quite an accomplishment!!

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  52. Thank you for your sweet comment Donna, I really appreciate it *hugs*

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